CPA ..er.. pains

I seriously NEED this book right now. Or any book rather that emphasizes hard-core motivation for the skeptic at heart. Becker CPA review is just not enough. From the book's intro it says (and most accurately) :

"Each year, over 120,000 CPA exam candidates continue to attempt to pass the CPA exam. It is a stressful event in the life of an accountant, and the stress goes beyond just the knowledge and the exam itself because of the high percentage (85%), of first time students who fail. "

I currently feel similar to this person's review of the book:

"The first six weeks of studying for the CPA I felt burned out and unmotivated. When I logged on to Amazon I was hoping for a miracle. I was hoping to find something the will help me overcome the fatigue. I wanted to get the CPA out of the way on the first try, and to never have to look at the CPA books again. Between this book and the CD, I regained my motivation."

Before I was married and egh.. extremely happy and fulfilled I was a militant test-taking Nazi without any other pressing responsibilities to care about. Now, I could drone on and on about my theory of the odds-are-against-me-attitude because the-state-wants-my-money kind-of-thing & my skepticism of institutional education. Hell, I just want to master the subject; not play mind games to appease merely for a piece of paper. But I know that would be absolutely counter-productive in a system which I've committed to playing against (or with?). So how should I deal with these daunting statistics for a profession I've thrown myself into willingly? I guess I need more optimism in my head if I want to pass on the first try instead of constantly feeding on my growing dissaproval over standardized exams. I wish Dane Cook could give me an analogy to pinpoint exactly what I'm feeling right now. I guess either way it's a good thing I'm incredibly stubborn about achieving life's goals. Either that or I'm simply delusional. Let's just hope I can get to the end-point in mind sooner rather than later. ;-) Mleh. It's just one of those days.